just a lil update

 heyy assalamualaikum.

semalam kan aku masak tomyam sotong untuk family dekat rumah, and plus I was hungry so masak je lah bebanyak, tau tak lepas parents balik tu aku kena marah sebab masak tomyam? like, hahha seriously kelakar la. Taklah aku sedih sebenarnya, ye lah dah masak, pastu kena marah? sebenarnya tak boleh brain kenapa orang marah sebab aku masak tomyam, reason marah sebab takde orang nak makan, kena sotong masak biasa tu je baru orang makan, takleh masak tomyam, kena mask biasa, then if takde yang makan masuk peti ais la esok aku yang makan kan. I mean, kenapa ya kena marah, when I actually put effort to cook for everyone to eat, pastu kena marah? aku tak faham and sedih juga. Aku punye goals this year is to cook for family every Sunday, in a way aku boleh belajar masak jugak, so tu jelah nak cerita aku sedih. Dah tiga minggu aku masak untuk family, first week, daging masak itam *like yayy finally tahu masak benda ni sebab ni faverettt sangat*, then second week masak sambal sotong *pengajaran nya masak sambal sotong jangan letak sos cili next time sebab so cili manehh*, third week, this weekla, masak tomyam sotong, telur goreng daun bawang dengan sayur campur brokoli with carrot *"tak payah masak tomyam, takde orang nak makan"-Abah*

I dont feel like going back home pun now, still in office crying my heart out, its 6.12pm. Sepatutnya by 5pm dah balik dah sebab datang awal tapi aku nak update blog ni dulu and nanges puas puas dulu, then baru balik. 

ada reason lain sebenarnya tapi aku simpan diam diam dalam hati

dan another reason is, 

Abah is trying to find calon untuk dijodohkan dengan aku, just the thought of it pun buat aku rasa stress sangat. Rasa takmau balik rumah, I have goals to achieve, I wanna buy house, and I want to have source of income yang tak terikat dengan office hour, and I wanna achieve that with someone yang I have on my mind.. 

the thought of living with someone yang I barely know is stressing me out, I dont get comfortable with people easily, this freaks me out, can I just leave home? 

Can I?